nothing's going right, and nothing probably ever will. yes me. me poor me, drowning in self pitty. but honestly, i don't care. all day i've been just laying here. crying sleeping and feeling shitty. what's new?! I mean really. is this EVER gonna end? because it's getting terribly old. always feeling bad, always wanting it more.

i'm sick of a large majority of the people in my school. so many people are annoying rude and are just not very nice people in general.I'm also sick of people telling me who i can and who i can't hang out with. and what's making me the most upset is that i'm actually starting to believe what they're saying. and i don't want to believe it, i don't want to think like them.but for some bloody reason, it's starting to get to me.

i like lily allen.

god, please help me. please make this hell end NOW. i've lost all motivation to go on. i can't even make myself shower any more. i always feel tired.

i wish i hadn't bought into all these lies. but maybe, even if i hadn't, i would still feel this way. i'm afraid that this will never get resolved. that you'll never want to listen. that this will never have a happy ending.and if this happens, how will i deal with it. how will i be able to accept it??how, oh how will i ever be able to?

I've found that you can find love in places you didn't even think possible.

I've also found that everyone is searching for love. to be loved, to feel loved, and to love. if everyone just gave a little love, everyone would feel a litlle love.

I don't think that anyone ever has it together. Everyone in the world is fucked up, and always will be fucked up. so stop searching for perfection, and stop trying to be perfect.'cause honestly it's never gonna happen.

Hi:) I haven't posted anything for awhile, so i thought i should. This is my first year of high school is going pretty good. I've been making a lot of new friends, which is awesome. The number one thing i had been nervous for was that i wouldn't like the friends that i had. But I like them all. I met his amzing boy named Edward, that i am in love w/ :) he's amazing, but i'm not so sure that he likes me......

well..........bye!

p.s. comment on photos please:)

Metro Station

The Maine

Switchfoot

Oath by Blood

I'm SOOOOO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This in no way is against Hanna Beth, but does anyone notice how she seems to have everything figured out. Her life looks so fun and exciting. She just gets to hang out and screw around all the time. She has a hot boyfriend Trace Cyrus. She's skinny, beautiful, and has everything going for her. I don't know where I'm going with this, but i just wanted to write down my feelings about her.

First of all wow. I feel heart broken. I feel like i don't have any best friends. Everyone seems to have that one special friend, and i don't. I just have a large variety of friends, but not one that i can call my best friend. I feel so...I can't even find the right words to express how i feel, but it's not good. All my friends already have best friends, and i feel like no one wants to be mine.

any advice?

I currently love I Must Be Dreaming and Into Your Arms. Into Your Arms is the wat i want a guy to feel about me.I'll post a rating of all their songs soon.

Plus I think that 3 of the guys in the band are HOT HOT HOT HOT! :) The 3 middle ones. If you look at Kennedy who is in the middle of the top row, and then the 2 guys John and Pat right below Kennedy.Who do you think is the cutest in the band?The top left guy is Jared and the top left is Garrett, but i don't like those 2.

I need to wash my hair before i go to bed arggggggggggggg. I  am going out to lunch with my friend Jackie tomorrow, so i got to get so fresh and so clean! The blue in my hair is completly faided, and i really need to re-die it, but i'm on my last pair of rubber gluves, so i need to either buy more or make my aunt give me more.

My aunt Rachel rocks. She is 28, a mom of 3 and has pink hair! and rocks it up!

Go Rachel!

The computer is so addicting!

Well, until next time, PEACE!

I just posted 2 new video's, check them out and leave a comment to let me know what you think!

 My favorite is Theodore! (the one in the green)

I just got this really cool shirt!

                (no that's not me! it's the girl that is pictured with the shirt on hottopic.com)

I won't be able to update anything for awhile considering i'll be at camp, so goodbye for a week or so!