I'm afraid that now is the only time that i know.

I hate valentine's day. and i think that i might, just maybe, hate my life.

nothing's going right, and nothing probably ever will. yes me. me poor me, drowning in self pitty. but honestly, i don't care. all day i've been just laying here. crying sleeping and feeling shitty. what's new?! I mean really. is this EVER gonna end? because it's getting terribly old. always feeling bad, always wanting it more.

i'm sick of a large majority of the people in my school. so many people are annoying rude and are just not very nice people in general.I'm also sick of people telling me who i can and who i can't hang out with. and what's making me the most upset is that i'm actually starting to believe what they're saying. and i don't want to believe it, i don't want to think like them.but for some bloody reason, it's starting to get to me.

i like lily allen.

god, please help me. please make this hell end NOW. i've lost all motivation to go on. i can't even make myself shower any more. i always feel tired.

i wish i hadn't bought into all these lies. but maybe, even if i hadn't, i would still feel this way. i'm afraid that this will never get resolved. that you'll never want to listen. that this will never have a happy ending.and if this happens, how will i deal with it. how will i be able to accept it??how, oh how will i ever be able to?

It's funny how you can want something so bad, and then not get it. and there's nothing you can do except just move forward, just try to go in forward motion. you can feel so empty and confused, and then suddenly you start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. light at the end of the tunnel is a very overused cliche, and to be honest i don't even care for it.

I've found that you can find love in places you didn't even think possible.

I've also found that everyone is searching for love. to be loved, to feel loved, and to love. if everyone just gave a little love, everyone would feel a litlle love.

I don't think that anyone ever has it together. Everyone in the world is fucked up, and always will be fucked up. so stop searching for perfection, and stop trying to be perfect.'cause honestly it's never gonna happen.

 

 

Hi:) I haven't posted anything for awhile, so i thought i should. This is my first year of high school is going pretty good. I've been making a lot of new friends, which is awesome. The number one thing i had been nervous for was that i wouldn't like the friends that i had. But I like them all. I met his amzing boy named Edward, that i am in love w/ :) he's amazing, but i'm not so sure that he likes me......

well..........bye!

p.s. comment on photos please:)

  Hi Guys! I'm doing this survey thing for something, and I need to know what sunglasses of Hanna Beth's you like the best. Just leave me a comment with the letter that corresponds to which sunglasses you like.
 
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Thank you!
 
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4 great bands that i want to see are coming to a place near me in the next 2 months!

Metro Station

The Maine

Switchfoot

Oath by Blood

I'm SOOOOO excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I know a lot of people don't like Miley Cyrus, but Breakout is truely amazing! I recomend it to everyone!

This in no way is against Hanna Beth, but does anyone notice how she seems to have everything figured out. Her life looks so fun and exciting. She just gets to hang out and screw around all the time. She has a hot boyfriend Trace Cyrus. She's skinny, beautiful, and has everything going for her. I don't know where I'm going with this, but i just wanted to write down my feelings about her.

I have soooooooooooooo many things to say, but so little time.

First of all wow. I feel heart broken. I feel like i don't have any best friends. Everyone seems to have that one special friend, and i don't. I just have a large variety of friends, but not one that i can call my best friend. I feel so...I can't even find the right words to express how i feel, but it's not good. All my friends already have best friends, and i feel like no one wants to be mine.

any advice?

I'm sitting on the computer listening to The Maine. Which, by the way they rock, so by their new album CAN"T STOP WON"T STOP.

I currently love I Must Be Dreaming and Into Your Arms. Into Your Arms is the wat i want a guy to feel about me.I'll post a rating of all their songs soon.

Plus I think that 3 of the guys in the band are HOT HOT HOT HOT! :) The 3 middle ones. If you look at Kennedy who is in the middle of the top row, and then the 2 guys John and Pat right below Kennedy.Who do you think is the cutest in the band?The top left guy is Jared and the top left is Garrett, but i don't like those 2.

I need to wash my hair before i go to bed arggggggggggggg. I  am going out to lunch with my friend Jackie tomorrow, so i got to get so fresh and so clean! The blue in my hair is completly faided, and i really need to re-die it, but i'm on my last pair of rubber gluves, so i need to either buy more or make my aunt give me more.

My aunt Rachel rocks. She is 28, a mom of 3 and has pink hair! and rocks it up!

         

Go Rachel!

The computer is so addicting!

Well, until next time, PEACE!

I'm sitting at home being lazy, when I should be packing, cleaning my room, and doing last minute laundry. I should be doing all of this because I am leaving for camp tomorrow! I'm excited and nervous at the same time. I don't really want to go, but my mother is making me go . :( The #1 reason why i don't want to go is that it's a 14 hour drive! we have to leave at 2 am on sunday morning so we get get there before dinner. so that's what's going on with me right now!

 

 

I just posted 2 new video's, check them out and leave a comment to let me know what you think!

 My favorite is Theodore! (the one in the green)

 

 

I just got this really cool shirt!

 

                (no that's not me! it's the girl that is pictured with the shirt on hottopic.com)

 

I won't be able to update anything for awhile considering i'll be at camp, so goodbye for a week or so!

I want these sunglasses!

 

I'm back from California, and  i had an awesome time!

We spent a lot of time at the beach. it was the first time i had seen the ocean, and i loved it. Now i want to move to California! Plus they have like no bugs! California has a magical feeling to it that makes it feel special. It was cool to see the place where there are tons of TV shows, and where tons of famous people live.

We also went to Disney Land for the first time, which was a lot of fun! I loved it there. We also went and saw Prince Caspian. I loved the first one, and loved this one even more i think. After the movie we went to Krispy Kreme, and i had 3 doughnuts! Afterwards i got a huge tummy ache!

It was definately a needed vacation. I needed the break away from here to get my head straightened out again. I was way to stressed out with my life.

I always knew i wanted to travel, but now i know for sure that traveling is really important to me, and that i really enjoy it. I want to see the world, and experience it. I don't just want to see it on TV, i want to go there and live amongst it.

Will be posting some photos soon hopefully!

Where are you going on vacation this summer?

 

I'll be gone to California until Thursday. I'm excited! It should be really fun! It will be nice to get away from life here and be able to just relax and take a break from everything.

                                                          

This is the first free night i've had  in a lllllllllooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggg time! I'm so Happy!

Why is it that at the end of the year your teachers just pile on the work, i hate it so much! It makes me stressed out, and i get really craby when i'm stressed out. Life Sucks sometimes.

Sometimes things just never go your way, and it F'n sucks. Life is so hard, but i guess you just have to get used to it, cause it's never gonna change.

 Doesn't this look cool?

School's almost out, and i can't wait!